I’m working on a couple more Chapliancy related posts. One about how I came to my decison and another about the actual process involved in becoming a chaplain candidate.

I’m too tired to write anymore about it tonight. I’m too tired to breathe, or make coffee, or parent. I’m tired of pretending to be a single mom, and tired of being in debt, and tired of having such a messy house, and tired of living in crisis mode for so long.

I haven’t slept much over the last month. I’ve been up late each night researching the Chaplaincy and I’ve woken up each morning having dreamt about it. The indecision wore me out. And now I’ve finally decided. I should be really excited… I would be… But really I just need a nap. When I wake up, I’ll go back to filling out five or six applications… Hopefully they’ll take me.