Rachel still needs your prayers. I’m posting her latest explanation of the situation. Please pray for her, her family and doctors. While you’re at it, pray for me. The 600 miles between us seem more heartbreaking than ever.

Update: It’s not an ectopic pregnancy. The baby doesn’t look healthy though… PRAY.

I am the mother of three kids, and currently pregnant with a much hoped for #4. I prayed that God would bless me with another child, and he has. I found out on Easter morning that I am expecting again. My happiness was short-lived, as I was experiencing some bleeding. I went to the doctor the very next day, and he told me that he believed I was miscarrying. I was to come back in a couple of days to see if my lower than normal hcg and progesterone levels went up or down. He expected them to go down, because he believed I was having an early miscarriage. When I went back, my levels had actually went up. He still had little hope, and I was to go back for more blood tests a few days later. Over the course of the week, my levels continued to rise slowly, but my doctor continued to believe that I was miscarrying. He sent me for an u/s, but they couldn’t see a gestational sac or anything else. He told me he was sorry, but there was no longer a pregnancy. I had a hard time accepting it, and he told me I could come back once more to have my levels checked. During all of last week, I was very emotional. I was alternately grieving my baby and holding on to hope that my baby was still alive. Monday afternoon, I had blood drawn for one final check, and Monday evening I began bleeding. I tried to accept that I really was losing my baby. Tuesday morning, I woke up to more bleeding and intense pain. I finally told myself that it really was over. I was no longer even worried about my lab results. When I called the doctor’s office, I asked for instruction on what I could do for my pain, and told them I assumed it was really over. Instead of confirming this, the doctor told me that my levels had again went up, and it looked like I was still pregnant. He was worried about my pain, and feared it could be an ectopic pregnancy. After spending yesterday evening in the ER getting more blood work and an ultrasound, they have told me that I am not miscarrying. The doctor told me that I do have a viable pregnancy, but they are just not sure where it is. They could not see anything in my uterus, but it was possible that it was just too early to see. They did, however, see something on my left side where I was experiencing the most intense pain, and he said it could be an ectopic pregnancy. I got the feeling that was what they really suspected. I am to see an OB today, and I should learn more at that appointment.
My request is for as many people as possible to pray for me. I need a miracle. I believe that God is bigger than this situation. I believe that He is powerful and He is able to let my baby live if he wishes. He created this child inside of me, and I know that He had a purpose in that. That purpose may very well be just to make my faith stronger in my baby’s death, but, until I know that for sure, I am asking Him for a miracle. I know that if He wanted to move my baby to the safety of my womb He can do that. I know that He is bigger than the knowledge we already have. I know that He holds life and death in His hands. I ask you to pray for me and my baby.
Ectopic pregnancy can not be fixed. If the baby is in my fallopian tube, it cannot survive there. Normal procedure is to remove the baby before it bursts my tube. I value my baby’s life. I don’t want to have to face that decision. I want God to take care of it. I know He can if he wills. I covet your prayers, friends. If you have a blog and would be willing to ask your readers to pray, I would appreciate that more than words could say. I know God hears our prayers. I know He wants us to make our requests known. Please pray for me and my baby.