The phone rang early this morning.  I fumbled to pull it to my ear and heard a lovely voice… the automated school phone system saying that school is canceled due to inclement weather.  Ahhhhh!  The kids will be thrilled.  Not that they don’t love school… but they love snow days even more.

I should be driving to Springfield for class in an hour or two.  That won’t be happening.  I doubt I could make it down this mountain and to the interstate… and even if I could, I would have to take my kids with me.

I considered staying in bed but decided to roast some coffee and clean the dining room instead.  Ahhh the smell of … wait that’s not coffee, it’s orange scented Pledge.  I really must get my chronic sinusitis taken care of.  It’s bringing me down.  That’s the real reason I didn’t sleep in.  I couldn’t breathe.

I went to an ENT last week and had a CT scan of my sinuses this Monday.  I go back to the doctor next week to get the results and come up with a plan.

(I realize that with how seldom I write lately, this post could be on top of the front page for a while… This is what’s wrong with blogs… people read about the latest sinus infection and completely miss out on the genius hidden in the archives… yes, I said genius.)

I’ve been really sick for a while now.  I go to the doc once or twice a month and get antibiotics and various prescriptions hoping that it will help.  It never does.  Thankfully I’ve finally been referred to a specialist.

The sinus stupidity mixed with chronic pain have done horrible things to my seminary studies.  I have several incompletes hanging over my head.  The professors and administration have been merciful.  More merciful than I have, it makes me feel like a failure… you know what with all the failing and all.

The greatest thing about being sick or hurting all the time (besides being sick and hurting) is the lovely advice I receive… oh and the exhortation… gotta love exhortation.  Oooh ooh and suggestions that I’m sick because of spiritual weakness or sin in my life… I Love That!

Religious Jargon Alert: Exhortation
Definition 1: Exhortation is an act or instance of exhorting…well that clears it up doesn’t it? Let’s try the second definition, “language intended to incite and encourage”  Um… OK.  I always thought it just meant encourage. But in this context, I think the word incite fits better… which officially means spur to action but my specific situation makes me think of  ”incite to violence…” but I digress.

(Wow, I sound bitter and angry don’t I?  I’m not, I just have a headache and an early morning case of sarcasm.  Read everything I say with one of those little winky emoticons.  <— see doesn’t that look jovial?)

Yesterday morning, I felt miserable.  I wanted to get on facebook and ask all of my friends to pray for me… but I didn’t.  Because I didn’t want a lecture about faith or my inability to minister if I don’t believe God will heal me.

(For the record, Me and God… we’re doing pretty good.  Thanks for askin’.  I know he’s strong and loving and he knows I’m dust… we work well together that way… even if I don’t capitalize pronouns referring to deity. )

Gracious!  Do you see how disjointed this post has become?  Now we know why I haven’t written my final paper for Dr. Lim.  Perhaps I should sign off and go make breakfast for my little girl.