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During a recent conversation with Rachel, I quoted the lyrics to Bethany Dillon’s song Hallelujah.

“Hallelujah, hallelujah Whatever’s in front of me
Help me to sing hallelujah Hallelujah, hallelujah
Whatever’s in front of me I’ll choose to sing hallelujah

She said to me, “I’m glad He helps us to sing it, because, really, it’s hard sometimes. Some of the “whatevers” are hard.”

I agreed, “Some ‘whatevers’ are hard. Oh but He’s good.”

Then I told her, “Rachel, I’m in one of my most feared “whatevers” right now.”

When tomorrow looked bleak
Joel is doing a 10 day series on his blog, describing the events that led up to our restaurant closing two years ago. His posts have led me to look back at my own writings from that time.

Joel’s Post:
The Last Days of the Lazy Susan – Part 1

On October 28th, 2005 I wrote:
Words Hurt
We’re Home

My emails reveal a woman scared of tomorrow.

That day I wrote to Kelly Godzwa:

“Pray, Pray, Pray for our restaurant. We are within about a week from closing. We have to find an investor or buyer ASAP. This is huge. Crazy money huge. Plus Joel leaves for Army officer training in South Carolina this Sunday morning. On list to be deployed to Iraq after he graduates in February. Unless we go active duty and move to who knows where… Everything hinges on the next week.

Trying to trust God. Future looks bleak. Like we’ll be personally paying off restaurant debt forever. Nothing but God can pull us out of this mess… so please pray. Thanks.”

Whatever’s in front of me
I was scared and ashamed. I worried that the worst would happen. The worst being that the restaurant would close, we’d have to pay off hundreds of thousands of dollars, and Joel would go to war.

And of course, two years later, that is exactly where we are.

I’ll choose to sing hallelujah
It’s true, I am in the middle of my most feared ‘whatever.” But God has helped me to sing. I told Rachel, “He’s just so good. I don’t feel defeated anymore. I don’t feel I have to grit my teeth to praise Him anyway… I’m not who I was.”

Most days come and go unnoticed. I study, go to class, take care of kids, talk to friends, sleep and repeat. Occasionally though, the moment seems surreal. I realize where I am. Where Joel is. What God has brought us through. What He’s still bringing us through. I praise God for this. For the pain, for the loss. We’ve gained so much because of it.

And so I think of another song, Another Hallelujah by Lincoln Brewster.

Now I just wanna say thank you to you.
You’ve pulled me from the miry clay.
You’ve given me a brand new day.
Now all that I can say is Hallelujah.


I closed The Lazy Susan one year ago today.

No time to write some thoughtful, inspiring post. So you can just read what I wrote four months ago.


Joel writes about the best and the worst year of his life.


On November 6th, we closed The Lazy Susan.

Here is a photo of a few or our employees the night we closed.

Our last day

That was an incredibly difficult day. If you missed all the drama you can find some of it here. Or just read the archives since November.

Joel recently wrote about regrets and what-ifs concerning the restaurant in a post titled, Turning Back Time.

Last night after arriving back in Springfield for another short stint, Amy and I were driving north on Campbell when we passed a tiny restaurant called Jose’s Place. As we drove by, I told Amy, “I wish I would have put the Lazy Susan in that location.” Her immediate response was, “I’m glad you didn’t.”

Joel wished he had chosen that location because it was cheaper and The Lazy Susan would still be open.

I meant what I said. I’m glad he didn’t put the restaurant there. As painful and nauseating as the last 8 months have been, I have to say,

“Praise God The Lazy Susan closed.”

Honestly, I don’t like where I am. And I definitely don’t like where we’ve been over the last 8 months. But I’m excited about where we’re going. For too many years I mumbled on this Web site about mediocrity. I finally know what I’m supposed to be doing … And I’m doing it!

I don’t believe I’d be an Army Chaplain Candidate if it weren’t for The Lazy Susan. That would still be on a list of dreams I wish I could do someday… right up there with fly to the moon. I know Joel wouldn’t be so passionate about getting out of debt and encouraging others to do the same.

This business disaster hurt. It hurt us and it hurt a lot of other people. But I believe know that God is using it for good. Not just a cliché-Romans 8:28-quoting kind of good… but real world, people touching, life changing GOOD.


Meatloaf

I just found this recipe card from The Lazy Susan… it still smells like meatloaf.


Jeremiah is whispering his restaurant plans in my ear again. He has decided that it will be a Lazy Susan restaurant. He says we should live at the restaurant, so that when ‘they’ try to close it we can stop them. Because his restaurant will never close.

Jami writes about Jeremiah’s restaurant.


There’s an article in the Nixa News-Enterprise about us today. Joe Hadsall has been interviewing us by phone and email over the last week. I’ve been nervous to see what he would write. Overall it’s a positive article. It does have the ususally factual errors that are always noticeable in a newspaper article when you actually know the real story.

Read the full article and my corrections below:

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